... that I knew for sure.
... that I had more courage and less trepidation.
... that I could let go of the past.
... that I was crazy in love.
... that I didn't seem to live my life wishing.
"How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives. What we do with this hour,
and that one, is what we are doing. A schedule defends from chaos and whim. It is a net
for catching days. It is a scaffolding on which a worker can stand and labor with both
hands at sections of time. A schedule is a mock-up of reason and order—willed, faked,
and so brought into being; it is a peace and a haven set into the wreck of time; it
is a lifeboat on which you find yourself, decades later, still living. Each day is the
same, so you remember the series afterward as a blurred and powerful pattern." ~ Annie Dillard
I wish for more chaos and whim.