the doldrums

There are no waves, no currents to carry me.

T he days and weeks fly by and yet I have not moved.

I sit, holding on to my piece of wreckage and I wait.

I made a splash once and nearly lost it all.

I floundered into the unsure waters, with the greatest of confidence.

And discovered, almost too late, that it was just a mirage.

So now, I survive and wonder.

"Given the choice between the experience of pain and nothing, I would choose pain." ~ William Faulkner