Saturday, November 20, 2010

I cannot understand


I have been trying all week to write about someone who chose to take her own life because she could no longer deal with her illness. I haven't been able to find the words, because I cannot understand and I hope and pray that I never know what complete hopelessness feels like.

Tell me how a soul can be so lost 
and swallowed by despair,
that walking into nothingness 
seems easiest to bear.

I cannot understand.



2 comments:

Monte Stevens said...

I cannot understand either. I had an aunt take her life a few years ago after suffering for many years with pain and disfiguring of her body. I don't know the answers, have never experienced that deep of despair. Hugs, my friend!

Anonymous said...

well... sometimes the body and the mind just get too tired of it all to go on... the pain becomes too painful... the weight of the issues become to heavy to carry and the exit door looks pretty good...

we do not live in other peoples skin and have no way of knowing what "it" (the whatever "it" is that makes them look for the door) feels like for them...

it is sad and it hurts and we ponder why...